everything and nothing all at once.
Sometimes you'll find yourself smiling,
While missing something at the same time.
At times you can absolutely love a person,
All the while wanting to hate them."
"Why do I feel happy & sad all at once? Why do I still love the person that hurt me & want him back all the time?"
My head tells me "Get over it; you should be used to this by now...used to being alone."
My heart tells me "You'll never get over him; he's the only one for you."
I tell myself "Just cover it all up with that smile, maybe you'll start to feel better in a while."
When my head, heart, and self all tell me the same thing I believe I will finally find peace within myself.
It's a sad, sad thing to say but I lie to myself more than to anyone else. I think my current goal is to try and be more in touch with my feelings; my true feelings that is. Then maybe I'll stop feeling so confused, so alone, and so lost. Or it could just confirm my feelings and make me feel even worse. Worth a try though, because this...this just isn't working.